No running with knives!!

Open Wounds

1. This last week has been a weird one, very different. My dad starting feeling ill and the incision from a surgery he had last year started to open up. Equaling major discomfort and stress on all of us. I've been a major homebody because of this and not in the mood to do much of anything. This open wound was the first one of the week.

2. My heart, is the next open wound. Constant wear and tear and improper use of it by the wrong people has caused it to never heal to it's original state.  This wound was opened up by my current situation and the feelings I have gained over the last couple of months, feelings that while being genuine have felt purposeless and without meaning. But due to my abruptness last week I got answers to questions that have been circling my mind for a little while. So I think my heart is in good care right now, with me, while caring for someone.

3. My love, those of you who know me, know who he is. My love, was my first real love,  breath of fresh air, just bangin'. Things went downhill as they do sometimes, first semester of college stress and long distance aiding the separation. Well my love, is no longer going to be far away. My love is now apart of the Temple University community. Yup, he successfully transferred, something I begged for a year ago, BUT everything happens for a reason. 

So this fall will be interesting. A healing, growing and probably hurtful period of time. While I'm trying to take care of my dad, not lose my head in stress, guard my heart from My luv and my love (a distinct difference), enjoy the remainder of Summer '08 without hurting a camper, going to Bing & PR, living & loving. I will definitely be trying to protect my heart, and protect my open wounds to the best of my ability. A band-aid will not be good enough for these wounds.

Love.

Jess